My Truth

I believe, God is the creative Divine Source of all that is.  I had lost that knowing along the way, the inner knowing I had grown to trust, that inner creative genius, inner guidance.  I began to crave and trust something outside of me and all the while the answers were still within.  We all know this to some degree or another but lose sight of it and forget along the way.  I gave my power away to so many (something I said I would not do again once I connected to my higher power within).  Divine Will is when you completely trust and are able to commune with a higher power that works with you and for you, to know we are all worthy of the most beautiful life full of love, joy, abundance and miracles.  Because I love and accept myself and know I am special.  I know this again but many do not.  I know my purpose is to bring about change through awareness. I may not know exactly all the details of what that looks like right now but I know I will be shown the way.  Even in what I’ve been through I know I had to go through, it was my soul’s plan, to be able to fully come into more of my truth and to fully stand in my truth.  Without truly releasing the old out dated beliefs, paradigm and emotions that no longer serve how could I possibly truly serve from a place of authenticity.

Many of us do not use our creative side, the right side of our brain.  This is where creativity flows, where I believe passion is sparked, inspiration, motivation and most of all where we trust our greatest gift our intuition….this is where we can trust our heart center.  That feeling I get when I ask a question now and my heart expands, knowing my heart will never lie to me.  We are taught at a young age to use the left side of our brain and I do believe we need a healthy balance of both but to only use logic and not creativity… we lose our zest for life.  We lose who we are, who we are meant to be.  All beautiful creative beings of light, here to co-create with each other as one.  I lost sight of this and so many things that I had remembered and been taught along the way.  But I make a promise to myself I will never forget again (the pain of doing so is way more than my soul can take).  I will take time for myself and nurture myself because I have to, I will be more forgiving to myself and others, I will do my best to try not to pass judgement and if I do I will practice forgiveness again and I will always have compassion for all including myself.  To have compassion and to love ourselves and others from a true heart centered place is life changing. Empathy is a strength!! To feel another’s emotions, joy or pain can be difficult at times but once you learn  how to have true compassion for another without taking on another’s energy completely on as your own, you can help and be of service from a place of authenticity because you can make sure you are not giving up your power, your energy to another.

The word Empath, everyone needs to become familiar with this word because I believe many if not all of us are one.  I know I am one…..to feel the pain of the world can be difficult at times but that is where my deep compassion for others comes from, that is where my deep desire to be of service comes from, to want to heal the world.  I may not be able to heal everyone but through the messages I share which I know will help to raise awareness through intention by being a clear channel for pure divine love to work through, I am being my truth.

With love in my heart always.  Stay heart centered without giving your power away and live with more joy, love, compassion and authenticity.  The way we are always meant to.

Inside Job

If we can all try to be more present in the moment and remember what we all really want and desire.  To feel more fulfilled with love and joy and have compassion for ourselves and others. To move away from darkness and lean towards the light.  In really listening to one of my favorite bands this morning….I really felt the words.  Especially to this song because we all connect and come from the same light.  I call it divine source that reminds me to continue to have faith and when I get off track reminds me that transformation happens first from the inside out.

Inside Job by

Pearl Jam

Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
Make myself a pact not to shut doors on the past
Just for today I am free

I will not lose my faith
It’s an inside job today

I know this one thing wellâ?¦

I used to try and kill love. the highest sin
Breathing insecurity out and in

Searching hope, I’m shown the way to run straight
Pursuing the greater way for all human light.

How I choose to feel is how I am.
How I choose to feel is how I am.

I will not lose my faith
It’s an inside job today

Holding on, the light of night
On my knees to rise and fix my broken soul
Again

Let me run into the rain
To be a human light again

Let me run into the rain
To shine a human light today

Life comes from within your heart and desire
Life comes from within my heart and desire
Life comes from within your heart and desire

Songwriters: Eddie Vedder / Mike Mccready

Inside Job lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

Now is the Time for Change

As I stumbled upon several post about the increase in suicides on news outlets and social media again feeling extremely nudged to do my part and share.  As I continue on my path towards healing trying to figure out all that led up to my breaking point, realizing yes ignoring signs that maybe I was taking on too much, maybe I was putting everyone else’s needs first ahead of mine, putting off my dreams to take care of “responsibilities” (forgetting that I am aware when you have true faith….the universe has your back.  We can have the lives we want without feeling constantly depleted), if I could have just asked for help a little sooner or if I didn’t have people around me that cared so much about me to notice I know where I would have been today (I’ve heard the emergency signals for months now knowing they were warning me).  Because I would have kept going had my family not stepped in or even worse been given an even bigger wake up call that I couldn’t have come back from.  I was lucky but many aren’t.  This was something I had written in October 2017 in-regards to the crisis at the moment that was in the news now realizing there is always going to be something that breaks my heart and the hearts of so many if we continue down this path of self-denial, self-destruction (call me dramatic but how dark does it need to get, how young does the next person need to be reported on the news that took their own life because we aren’t facing what is in front of us).  Something is seriously wrong when the world keeps ignoring that we need change.

NOW IS THE TIME FOR CHANGE:

I want to take this moment to acknowledge and speak out about all the chaos that is going on in our world lately.  At times I’ve felt it’s almost too much to bare, out of control…. Not sure if I have any words of wisdom but want to say I’m sorry to all that are suffering, grieving, struggling, traumatized, trying to figure out how to move forward, my prayer is that at some point you feel a glimmer of hope again.

It’s easy for me to not turn on the news and pretend everything is fine in my safe little bubble but even in doing that I feel the sadness, fear and uncertainty of the world.  Real emotions due to real events.  I feel this sadness and know I must do my part, this is why I was called upon.  So I do my part by praying, donating time, items and money where I can.  But also knowing the more I continue with my practices of going within connecting with my higher power, I can create change, a ripple effect and the more of us that do this one day we will see less of this craziness.  Knowing we are all one, even if I wasn’t directly impacted it still hurts my heart.

The universe has been telling me over and over again Now is the time for humanity to rise up to continue as a species that yes we must all come together in communities but we all need to turn inward to be able to truly help others, we must help ourselves, heal ourselves, be mindful, begin to live with the intention that we can turn darkness into light, fear into love, despair into hope.  Where there is hope there is change.  We have become a society that is moving way to fast, focused on how to achieve success by how much we can do or how much we have but it’s people who matter.  And it will always go back to love…but how can we love others when we hate ourselves, when we can’t forgive ourselves and others, when we hold onto resentment, anger and judgement and have so much fear due to feelings of lack and scarcity.

I’ve learned that war, violence, hatred, abuse, etc. all comes of a scarcity mentality, a fear based thinking world.  Yes there are real issues right now that are creating fear.  I am not taking away from the parents that lost a child or a child that lost their parents, their friends, brothers and sisters all I can say is I am so sorry that you have to endure this deep level of pain and my prayers are that you can get through this with the support, help and love from your communities and loved ones.

But if we can begin to think and feel as one and understand the oneness, that there is no separation between you and me, “We” are here together as one!  Now is the time we must unite and come together with the intention to create change.  Individually we become mindful and love intentionally with the same goal of love and peace, change can happen.  It may begin by going within healing our spirit, the inner child within all of us for humanity to begin to realize we are all brothers and sisters no matter our skin color, race, sexual preference, religion or social status.  What we do onto others we do onto ourselves.  So open your heart, stay heart centered, come together as a community with love and we can rise above all…..as one mind, one love, one heart.  Come together now for now is the time for us and for future generations to come, to move further away from darkness and closer to the light.  Now is the time for change!

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You are special

I am sending this as a reminder to myself and anyone else that is having a difficult time (a re-post of something I had posted a while back; a reminder that You are Special).  I thought I had gone through a transformation last year when I began to awaken and I did but the one thing I did not do is listen to the guidance that was given to me.  I did not listen to my heart, I did not fully do the work of going within to release all fear, doubt, worry and negativity that was stuck deep within me.  When I’m ready to fully share my story about how from one day to the next I went from a spiritual high to the next stopped completely in my tracks, flipped upside down, engulfed by fear.  The story of how my complete breakdown has begun to lead to a breakthrough….a transformation into my true authentic self (not quite there yet but the time is NOW to share).

Thank God for my tools and practices for once I could finally put a sentence together on my own and begin to kind of understand what was happening that I had been living in fear this whole time, pretending to the outside world everything was okay and had begun to move away from love for myself.  I began to use the tools I had learned but it wasn’t until I fully surrendered to the process and admitted to myself that I have no idea how to do this.  I believe we heal in others what still needs to be healed in ourselves and the biggest thing that has helped me is going back into my notebooks and reading the messages I had been given.  It was as if my future self was telling me the whole time what would happen if I didn’t listen, didn’t fully release and live from a place of authenticity.  These words of encouragement to help me through this extremely painful time.  It’s crazy because no one physically died but I feel a part of me did which I know will be a good thing one day but right now in the thick of it, it is my own personal internal Hell of old emotions, lies I believed in for so long, a false self…it’s scary, crazy and I don’t even have the right words right now to explain what I’m going through but all I know is I have to share the messages of encouragement that I have been given over the past year or so.  For if I can help one person with a positive message that has begun to help me heal then than I know I’ve done more than enough.

YOU ARE SPECIAL:

You will continue to raise your vibration, every time you go within it gets higher, your presence becomes stronger, we become more and more connected to you, it will seem so easy to connect.  Your gifts are blossoming.  We are here to help you and yes you will be able to help yourself and others.  As long as you are open to receiving and open to allowing there is no prayer to big that we are not willing to guide and help you with.  You have the power and with our help we will help you create whatever your heart desires as long as it stays in alignment with your true self.  You are worthy, continue to work on your relationship with yourself, continue to love yourself, take time for yourself without guilt and you will begin to see the miracles, actual miracles happen before your eyes.

You are special, remember that, repeat it out loud, You are special!  God has a special plan for you, you are unique, you are able to create beautiful loving magic.  Love yourself unconditionally just like we do, without judgement, you are perfect in the eyes of God.  Yes everyone has things in their life they can improve on but you are now aware of those things that may be holding you back and when you are ready we will help you to release those habits that no longer serve you.

Continue to learn, listen to the positive teachers that you’ve been listening to.  In your own unique way, you to can be a teacher and we can help you.  Be proud of how far you have come, once you removed the negative, self-destructive, inner chatter and replaced it with positive thoughts, added a daily meditation routine, added a daily way to move your body, began self-care and knew you were worth it, change happened, life shifts and it begins with the thoughts, there has to be a better way, life has to be better than this, I am going to make it better for myself, I am ready to move out of ordinary and live extraordinary.  Once that shifts takes place there is no going back.  Once you open yourself up to a beautiful life of ease and flow and stop living from fear, creativity begins to flow easily.