Resurrection & Rebirth

Thinking of Easter, as I have never before truly thought of what it means to me prior to my own “Resurrection” last year. For most Easter is the celebration of the resurrection of Christ.

As we are in Spring, a time where all that dies comes back to life, during Natures slumber, rest and transformation, what is taking place under the surface, deep within seedlings doing their thing, caterpillars going through metamorphosis. All that is displayed, blooming and is shown on the level of Nature is what organically and naturally happens within and through us. Many are going or have gone through a death and rebirthing process to uncover our truest nature.

Jesus’ resurrection a metaphor of what is happening within and all around us to rise above and bring a new, a new perspective, creation, action plan. We are all being called in our own unique way to Resurrect.

I Celebrate me

Today I celebrate myself, my kindness, my big heart, my quirks, my goofiness, my creativity, my thirst to uncover the answers to the big questions (my inquisitive mind), the fact that I follow my heart more than the Ego’s limiting rapid stream of thoughts that are untrue. I celebrate my gifts of connecting to a higher power, my intuition, to Angels, that I can clearly hear, see, feel and know that there is more that exist than what most can sense.

I celebrate as I walk outside and stumble because I am too busy looking up at the sky, the birds, trees, the clouds, the twinkling of lights as the energy of the Universe shows itself to me, knowing that I am powerful. My energy has turned lights on, has made the power go out, has created color all around me, in the different shades of the loving compassionate color of my aura that is pink, that I am able to have soul connections, feel the unconditional love flow through me. I know without a doubt there is more to life than what most can see, I have been fortunate to reconnect with grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, friends, all I had to do was go within and get into my heart and from that space anything is possible.

I celebrate me. My genius, my love for all, the time I have taken to heal old shadows and know it is okay to feel. I love to feel joy but I also love a good cry, so I celebrate all parts of me as well as my emotions that I came here to feel and heal. I make a promise to do my best, to not play small but stand tall in my truth, the true self in my light. I will no longer dim my light because I make other’s uncomfortable, because perhaps they are not there yet, in fact for those I turn on the flood flights to shine even brighter. Excited for their awakening, so that they can see the world with the same love and wonderment that I have been awoken to.

Self Discovery

Are you operating in the now? Are your decisions based on what is right in front of you? Or are you unconsciously making a decision today based on past fearful outcomes, past judgements and out of fear of how others will perceive you? Unknowingly, projecting fear into your life and into the lives of others. Constantly giving advice based on fear because of the conditioning and programming that is so ingrained into our psyches that if not aware of it and not willing to make changes, we will continue living in fear, anxiety, lacking trust in almost everything we do and everyone. Have your children begun taking your projections of fear and have implemented them into their lives, their behaviours, taking your stories and making it theirs?

Begin to really become aware, start really asking “why am I doing this?”, Am I trying to control someone because I feel they need to be fixed but not willing to look at your own neurotic behavior? As a person who spent years feeling a need to save everyone or worse wanting others to change to fit into a box that I thought was how we are “supposed” to be and act, not until I began on this journey of self discovery, realizing being spiritual doesn’t mean I am exempt from things happening to me, it just means I don’t make excuses anymore and when I do I catch myself. That is what awareness is about, we witness our behaviors and can easily begin to see if they are ego/fear based or from love/our higher aspect of self.

I was guided into healing for all the wrong reasons (but then again a higher power knew the motive had to be something that would trigger me to my core to want to pursue it, my children). When I thought there was a problem and thought I could fix it, heal it, heal our family, knowing now if it weren’t for me getting on a healers table to see what it was about before I put my own child on one, the healer the whole time saying nothing was coming up for my child but a whole lot was coming up for me. I remember the comment, “her fears come from you, you are not intentionally doing this but they are yours” and even then I didn’t want to take responsibility, how could I, I couldn’t see it at the time, so I couldn’t receive a message like that. I just wanted my baby fixed, someone help her to feel better. And so it began. What I thought was her journey was mine (so damn smart she knew it at the age of 8 years old, that her mom needed to come to the realization on her own, that I am worthy of love and needed to learn how to love myself).

We will always be lead to where we are meant to be. Not everyone will get “it” in this lifetime but I have a feeling a lot of people that once asleep are waking up and when you are ready, I will be here. Begin your journey of self discovery, become aware of how you may be living unconsciously.