This half way point of awareness, of the change that is happening, a piece of me wanting to go back to the old version of pushing, making things happen, forcing until I’m done, depleted and physically just can’t do anymore. But my soul wants me to pause, wait, stop, allow for a moment, to take in the progress, the changes, the shifts that I have created, that we created together. This does not mean non action, in fact this is the most productive action I’ve taken. I’m no longer running on stress, on anxiety, and no longer have my head completely in the clouds, but aware. Awareness, being awake is not easy at all times. In fact it’s a complete reality check, no more excuses, no more lies and that means I no longer can lie to myself. I can no longer pretend I’m happy if I’m not, I no longer feel comfortable in the discomfort I became accustomed to. I have to walk the talk. There was a point where I was in an almost constant spiritual state of bliss and I lived at a really high vibration for a while, which is great as long as I remember to stay grounded, aware and without spiritual bypassing. Inspired writing was what I presented but was I truly following the advice I was giving?….Not always. That I found, doesn’t fly with my soul, with the Universe period. And that is a path I believe we are all being led on.
As we all begin to awaken and become more aware we have choices to make. Do you go on pretending doing what no longer feels right because it is what you’ve been taught or do you uncover the false self and allow the true self to emerge?
One night I experienced what I call the zombie night, during a time in my life where it was as if a portal opened up and I had inside access and was shown what is playing out in the Universe and what will be unfolding. Where I heard the sound of zombies, it was so intense I had to put ear plugs in my ears because I didn’t want to hear the truth. So I avoided, tried to shut out what was being presented to me which is, that most of us are choosing a zombie life. We are in these amazing vehicles called bodies and we have the potential for greatness, in fact we don’t even have to go after it, the greatness exists now but we are numbing out, doing everything we can to not feel, not to face each other let alone ourselves, and literally walking around like zombies half the time with our faces in multiple devices and don’t even remember how we got from point A to point Z.
I mention this because there is a huge turning point, I feel it, like a major shift is going to happen again. The last huge transition I went through pushed me beyond what was “humanly” possible. Or so I thought. I saw, heard, felt past the physical senses and was shown the beyond, what is possible as multi sensory and multi dimensional beings, what we have access to and what we are capable of. Little by little I’m shown more and more. Things such as, I have a thought and focus on that thought creating an action but not a physical one, making things happen with my mind, energetically. Simple things like changing radio stations, or lowering the volume or from the bathroom turning on the coffee maker in the kitchen. I was shown that I could either choose to be mind controlled by outside negative forces that don’t always have my best interest in mind such as programmed news outlets, shows, government, politics, genetically modified foods, chemicals, things that are trying to close my pineal gland instead of having it in it’s natural state. As well as my other emotional centers (you’ve heard me refer to them as chakras before). I know when they are balanced, I no longer can be controlled but can have the power to move, change and create things in my life with my mind, my heart, my soul, co-creating with a higher power of love because now I am functioning from a place of perfect coherence. And I am easily able to enter into a state of presence, of neutrality, observation, being the witness without judgment. I’ve seen the impossible and no longer put limits on anything. I’ve seen through the density of walls, other dimensions, this is the stuff you see in science fiction movies except it’s no longer pretend. Just wait and see, things are about to get really real but not in the way you’ve been used to.
As Yogi Bhaghan stated at this time in our lifetime; 1/3 of the population will go insane, 1/3 will die (commit suicide) and 1/3 will awaken. Which one will you choose?